Trust

As i've said, I am learning how hard I am on other people. I don't give an inch it seems or give people any chances. Which is completely ridiculous seeing as my life has been one second chance after another. There's always been someone who was willing to forgive and forget my mistakes and give me yet another chance. So in learning recently that my trust in someone had been broken at first completely floored me. In many ways it was a huge change. I am generally the one who does the trust taking. Then I became pretty angry and then I realized that this is what it feels like to do this to other people. What a horrible feeling. I can't imagine the people that have known me the longest have felt this way about me before and didn't slam the door shut and walk away. However, one person inparticular took this feeling to another level completely. They absolutely betrayed me in a way that I cannot begin to express. And I am furious. Actually I am calm about it now but it took awhile to get here. I am stuck now. I know that I should forgive and forget as so many have done for me. Yet this person sees no wrong in their actions and I can't get over it. So for now once again I am back to square one. For the second time in not so many days. Poo once again on humans.