Toyota

For the past month and a half, I have been in the application process for the Toyota plant in San Antonio. I have gone through a 5 hour computer skills assessment and a 9 hour physical ability assessment. All the while I have been praying like I have never prayed before that God will open this door and allow me to work there. At every stage of the application process, it felt so good to feel that he was taking his time and allowing everything to fall into place. But...now the doubt is starting to creep in. What if, no matter how badly I want to get this job, God doesn't have it in his plan for me? I have been BEGGING in prayer for this to happen and now my prayers are earnestly asking for his plan to change to include this happening for me. Is it wrong to question his plan? To see so much good that could come from this and to want it so badly, yet knowing that there is a chance that he may not allow it to happen. It is beginning to worry me that I may harbor some resentment if it doesn't happen. That, I know is wrong on all levels and it scares me to think those feelings could arise. So, i'd just like to ask that everyone remember me in your prayers and pray that Toyota becomes a part of my very near future.

Why Do I Watch?

Well, I just finished watching my beloved Kansas Jayhawks lose to the UCLA Bruins in the Elite Eight. I am crushed yet again by my boys in blue and white. Every year I get my hopes up and every year they come oh so close and never live up to my expectations. Now don't get me wrong, i am not placing unfair expectations on these guys. I mean they were a #1 seed and had won 14 straight until tonight. They won the regular season Big 12 title and the Big 12 Tournament championship. And they proceeded to play horribly tonight when it mattered.
Now I have been watching Kansas basketball since almost before I can remember. My dad's parents are from Kansas so that is where my loyalty started. From a very young age i can remember watching and rooting for the Jayhawks like a rabid dog. I remember watching them win the national championship in 1988 and being SO incredibly excited. But ever since then I get so wrapped up in them that I get so dissapointed when they lose. It's not like I even went to Kansas University, but I sure feel like I did.
So, I am crushed and must wait for another year to roll around so I can place all of my hopes and dreams on a single team to win it all. Gotta love college basketball.