Want, Want, Want

Have you ever really wanted something for yourself in a way that is almost impossible to describe? I mean to want something so bad that it almost overrides everything else. That is where I am at the moment. Have been for awhile. I want something and it doesn't appear that it is going to happen for me. That is a not so bueno feeling. To realize that no matter how hard you pray and wish for something, that it is not going to come to fruition. So now my thoughts have begun to turn to dealing with not having this. But I still can't get over not having it. Quite the dilemma. Not much fun. I guess I need to buck up and get over it, huh?